Monday, June 7, 2010

More Crap On My Mind

In my lifetime I have been through several BAD relationships. I'll keep it short and just say "I KNOW WHAT ABUSE IS". I had a husband who left more bruises on me than I could ever begin to count and who abused my child in the worst way imaginable. So, yeah, I'm pretty sure I know what abuse is. Anyway, 7 years ago I met and moved in with the most wonderful man. On the 4th anniversary of the day we met, we got married. The most gentle and loving man I've ever met. In 7 years we have NEVER had an argument. Mind you, we've disagreed, but we've talked it out without ever raising our voices. The only time I've ever heard him raise his voice was during an extremely stressful move and I was stressed into max bitch mode. From the other room as he was carrying a box out the door he yelled "I'm stressed too". Five minutes later he came back in and gave me a hug. I have watched this man give away several cars, a beat up RV, and music equipment. My youngest son has been having a lot of problems in the year and a half since his wife died and my husband is always there to help. Our finances aren't the best, but when he places our food order each month, he buys an extra order for him and our granddaughters. Between my four children, we have 7 grandchildren, who all adore him.

Now, to the crap on my mind. He has a daughter. I've never met her because she won't speak to him and he doesn't know why. We've talked about it off and on for 7 years and he still can't figure out why. The last time he saw her was at her graduation and everything was fine as far as he could tell. She has a son. We've never met this 9 year old grandson. He has tried to contact her several times.... cards, letters, an invitation to our wedding. No response at all. Well, I did internet searches and I found her on twitter. I clicked 'follow'. She blocked me. I follow her ex on twitter. In many respects he reminds me of my husband. Not in appearance, but in how he "talks" on twitter. Because of the pictures he has posted we know that this grandson is the spitting image of his grandfather when he was that age. Anyway, I also found them on facebook. My husband and I read her posts and she sounds happy with her new husband. Then I found her ex's page and proceeded to read everything posted there. After clicking 'older posts' several times I came upon this:

I spent a bunch of years married to a person with Borderline Personality Disorder. I can't begin to describe how intense it was. Whenever I think "maybe it wasn't that bad" I re-read the journal a counselor asked me to keep. Our son (I have sole custody) has been diagnosed as "emotionally handicapped." He is also gifted but the scars profoundly effect his education.

My ex was severely abused by her father. It's a sad cycle of damage.

I have been livid ever since!!!! This man has not one single abusive bone in his body. Like I said previously..... I know abuse and abusers. My husband is NOT one of them. It is tearing my heart apart to know that this is what she has said of her father and that this is apparently why he has not been permitted to know his grandson. First of all, her parents divorced when she was 8 months old. Her father saw her on weekends. Then he moved away and he saw her less often, but she went with him to Florida to visit his parents and Disney World several times. She came here to visit him up until she was 16 and he yelled at her for acting inappropriately in public and poked her shoulder with his finger. He didn't see her again until she graduated at 18. Everything appeared to be fine that day, then she stopped speaking to him completely. This has weighed heavy on his heart all these years.... especially the not knowing why. And now... we find this crap! How do I get her ex to understand that she lied? Because there's no way on God's green earth that this man I married has ever abused anyone. I want her to tell me just exactly "HOW" he abused her.




Thursday, June 3, 2010

Heavy on my mind

Another night I cannot sleep. Recently, I found an old friend on FB. I can't add as friend because for un-confirmed reasons she is no longer a friend. This has been weighing heavy on my mind for the last 7 years. We met about 15 years ago and became fast friends from the get go. We were like sisters. I was her maid of honor. When either of us needed the other, we were there. Then I quit work to take care of my parents. And one day when I got to her house she met me with a helmet and said you're going for a ride...... So, I got on the bike with her husband (nothing new there) and went for a ride. Only problem was he stopped and asked why I had dated his friends, but never him and "you know all of this could have been yours". To say I was shocked speechless was an understatement. Not long after my mom died and he came to the house to pick something up and gave me what I thought was a sympathy hug, only he then tried to kiss me! After telling him that I only loved him like a brother and could never feel anything other than that, and that he had it made with a wife who loved him dearly and I could never EVER do anything that would hurt her, I made him leave. After that, every time I went over there, if he was home, he would make comments when she was out of hearing that made me quite uncomfortable. So, I stopped going over when I knew he was going to be home. Then after a party she asked me if I had been hitting on him....... her 'new' best friend and her ex said they saw me. I was heartbroken that she would even ask! The last time I saw her my fiance (now my husband) took me to her house (even though it made him run late for work) so I could take her roses for her birthday. She was downright out and out rude!!!!! From that day on she never answered the phone when I'd call and never returned my calls. It's been 7 years and I still miss her.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

New Baby Dragons!

I think spring has finally arrived.... though some days it feels more like summer, which in my mind is a good thing. Perfectly happy to see the end of the cold and white stuff! I've been working in the yard in spits and spurts. Got the pond in the ground, but not anywhere near finished. Even so, it is now the residence of 4 frogs. The water lily is happy to be out of the aquarium it spent the winter in and is doing well. I got some japanese iris from a lady in Elkton and they are blooming! Inside the house.... we got a bathroom vanity and sink off of Freecycle! The original "vanity" looked it's age and wasn't very nice looking at all. The sink was plastic (I didn't even know they made plastic sinks :o ) it was covered with gouges, deep scratches and all of it stained. I didn't like using it for anything. But now.... It looks soooooooooo nice! DIY network says putting in a vanity/sink is a half day project. HA! Took a week and a couple days. It's in now, and no leaks and that's what counts. Plus it just plain looks good! I am so happy with it I allowed myself "claytime". So far have two more cute itty bitty dragon hatchlings. Ruby and Garnet. I love making these things, but sometimes I think I've lost all my marbles. I use AngelBabyDove's eggs (she usually lays 2 each month). These dove eggs are only maybe an inch long... So, not only are they MUCH smaller than chicken eggs, they are also much more fragile. I try not to think about the ones that are smashed beyond recognition. Anybody know a sure fire way to make eggshells tough? Ruby has been listed in my Bonanzle booth, Garnet will be listed once her finishing touches are done. In the meantime.... HERE'S RUBY!!!!!



Sunday, April 25, 2010

This one is Snow's fault!

While reading Snow's blog I realized it has been quite some time since I did one of my own. (Told you in the beginning I was no good at this). Soooooo......... it's been about 6 months. During that time we sold the big old falling apart 3-story Victorian and moved into a 3 bedroom mobile home. Talk about down-sizing! We still have boxes and stuff tucked all over the livingroom and in the hallway, to be sorted through and either find a spot for it or find a new home for it. There are also 2 storage units we're slowly weeding out.... will soon be able to condense into one unit. Slow progress there as the youngest son has been taking up a bit of time for the last month. We stopped in the end of March and found him stuck in bed. After 10 hours in the ER.... bulging disc. And nobody will see him without cash up front. We don't have the extra..... he can't work, has no insurance. So every few days he calls, can we come get him and he comes up here for a day or two. Just took him home tonight (picked him up yesterday). Was hoping to keep him a couple more days because our chiropractor said to bring him in and he'd see what he can do for him. Oh well, maybe in a day or two he'll be back.

On the home front.... I found "rumble buttons" !!!!!! Son and friend got up on the roof and put them in. Blow wind blow!!!!!!!!! Roof is oh so much quieter! In the next week or two the re-sealing of the roof begins. I was very happy to find lots of flowers in the flower bed. It's been fun watching to see what comes up. There are a couple bunches of bleeding hearts, lots of hostas and daffodils, a rose bush and either lots of irises or glads...... not sure which yet. Oh, and there's bunches of ornamental grass.... haven't looked it up to see what it is yet though. I've started (kinda sorta) digging the hole for my pond. After a couple shovels of dirt it's time to go sit and breath... Chantix next month! All in all, it's coming along well, if a bit slow.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Re: Charlie Reese


Got this in an email today...I've been saying stuff like this for years........................

Charley Reese (now retired) has been a journalist for 49 years.

545 PEOPLE
By Charlie Reese

Politicians are the only people in the world who create problems and then campaign against them.

Have you ever wondered, if both the Democrats and the Republicans are against deficits, WHY do we have deficits?

Have you ever wondered, if all the politicians are against inflation and high taxes, WHY do we have inflation and high taxes?

You and I don't propose a federal budget. The president does.

You and I don't have the Constitutional authority to vote on appropriations. The House of Representatives does.

You and I don't write the tax code, Congress does.

You and I don't set fiscal policy, Congress does.

You and I don't control monetary policy, the Federal Reserve Bank does.

One hundred senators, 435 congressmen, one president, and nine Supreme Court justices equates to 545 human beings out of the 300 million are directly, legally, morally, and individually responsible for the domestic problems that plague this country.

I excluded the members of the Federal Reserve Board because that problem was created by the Congress. In 1913, Congress delegated its Constitutional duty to provide a sound currency to a federally chartered, but private, central bank.

I excluded all the special interests and lobbyists for a sound reason. They have no legal authority. They have no ability to coerce a senator, a congressman, or a president to do one cotton-picking
thing. I don't care if they offer a politician $1 million dollars in cash. The politician has the power to accept or reject it. No matter what the lobbyist promises, it is the legislator's responsibility to determine how he votes.

Those 545 human beings spend much of their energy convincing you that what they did is not their fault. They cooperate in this common con regardless of party. What separates a politician from a normal human being is an excessive amount of gall. No normal human being would have the gall of a Speaker, who stood up and criticized the President for creating deficits. The president can only propose a budget. He cannot force the Congress to accept it.

The Constitution, which is the supreme law of the land, gives sole responsibility to the House of Representatives for originating and approving appropriations and taxes. Who is the speaker of the House? Nancy Pelosi. She is the leader of the majority party. She and fellow House members, not the president, can approve any budget they want. If the president vetoes it, they can pass it over his veto if they agree to.

It seems inconceivable to me that a nation of 300 million cannot replace 545 people who stand convicted -- by present facts -- of incompetence and irresponsibility. I can't think of a single domestic problem that is not traceable directly to those 545 people. When you fully grasp the plain truth that 545 people exercise the power of the federal government, then it must follow that what exists is what they want to exist.

If the tax code is unfair, it's because they want it unfair.

If the budget is in the red, it's because they want it in the red.

If the Army & Marines are in IRAQ, it's because they want them in IRAQ

If they do not receive social security but are on an elite retirement plan not available to the people, it's because they want it that way.

There are no insoluble government problems.

Do not let these 545 people shift the blame to bureaucrats, whom they hire and whose jobs they can abolish; to lobbyists, whose gifts and advice they can reject; to regulators, to whom they give the power to regulate and from whom they can take this power. Above all, do not let them con you into the belief that there exists disembodied mystical forces like "the economy," "inflation," or "politics" that prevent them from doing what they take an oath to do.

Those 545 people and they alone, are responsible.

They and they alone, have the power.

They and they alone, should be held accountable by the people who are their bosses.

Provided the voters have the gumption to manage their own employees..

We should vote all of them out of office and clean up their mess!

Charlie Reese is a former columnist of the Orlando Sentinel Newspaper.

What you do with this article now that you have read it.......... Is up to you.

Monday, September 14, 2009

My Newest







SNOWDANCER

from Mamawolf Creations



On a cold and snowy winter’s eve, Mama sat at her window, imagining her pond coming alive in the spring. Movement caught her eye and she saw a fairy dancing in the snow... SnowDancer


This OOAK original artdoll sculpture is completely hand-sculpted from professional quality polymer clay. No molds were used.

SnowDancer is detailed to the best of my ability. She measures 9 inches tall, with lovely hand-painted features. Her hair is hand-carded, hand-washed and hand-combed angora.

Her clothing is also hand-made from iridescent fabric and her boots are trimmed with real rabbit fur. Her wings are made with blue fantasy fiber and fantasy film. They are gently posable, but not recommended as they are fragile.

A beautiful addition to any fairy collection.


THIS IS NOT A TOY AND IS NOT MEANT FOR

CHILDREN UNDER AGE 12 !




Friday, September 11, 2009

Stressful week

Wednesday was my granddaughter's 13th birthday. She is now officially a teenager! Tonight was supposed to be her birthday dinner, but 2 days before her birthday her great grandmother died and the funeral was today. Her dinner is re-scheduled for Sunday, which means PopPop can't go because he'll be sleeping so he can go to work Sunday night. THENNNNN I get a phone call yesterday that a friend of the family for forever died and his funeral is Monday...... And then I find out another friend of ours spent her vacation in the hospital with heart problems. What next?? The weather fits the general mood..... cold and rainy.

Friday, September 4, 2009

Got my ire up!

Most people who know me are aware that I'm usually, according to my husband, "lost in clayland". They also know I'm super pickey and a bit of a perfectionist, so I'm always on the lookout, or searching for sculpting tutorials, for help or just ideas. So, the other day I'm searching and found a site..... went to check it out because it belonged to someone who was a member of a group I belong to. First of all, it was irritating because it's made for a wide screen. How many of us can really afford a wide screen monitor? I can deal with that (barely), and she has a tab for "free tutorials". I click on the tab..... and the page says "for free tutorials go to my forums". Kinda weird, but okay, I'll go check out her forums. So, I click on her forums tab. Now, let me tell you.... I'll be 58 years old in a couple weeks, been married more than once, tended bar in a biker bar for 5 years, drove a big truck long-haul ........ so I'll admit to having gone around the block a few times..... BUT!!!!!!!!! I've never had an interest in porn, no matter if it's soft porn, hard porn.... I'm not interested. Sooooo imagine my dismay when the forum page opens and all I find there are ........ well, as far as I'm concerned, porn! Now, this is a fellow doll-artist. She does have some of her dolls on her site, but her quality of work has gone from pretty good to, well, in my opinion, crap! Must be the porn has affected her brain????? I don't know what this woman's problem is, but it's sites like hers that make sales difficult for the rest of us.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

I am a Smoker

Yes, I am. So is John. Been smoking for over 40 years. Know what really bites my ass? People who have never smoked who tell you that you should quit and that all you have to do is make up your mind and do it. I say this because an acquaintance (we've seen him all of three times and the longest was about 15 minutes) heard me coughing yesterday and informed me I need to quit smoking. WHAT THE ????????????????? What makes him think he has the right to tell me what I need to do???? I believe I'm quite old enough to know what I do or don't NEED to do. I damn sure don't need someone who has spent a total of less than an hour with me to tell me. I know I need to quit..... my doctor has been telling me often enough. I also know I have tried the fake cigarettes, the gum, the patches, sucking on hard candy, Wellbutrin........ I'm still smoking. Got a perscription for that new stuff, Chantix..... by the time we had enough money to get the script filled, it was too old. Be that as it may..... what I'm here to tell you is this:
QUITTING SMOKING IS NOT A MATTER OF JUST MAKING UP YOUR MIND!!!!!!! Telling me I could quit if I wanted to means you don't have a clue. I do not enjoy hacking my head off day after day. I also would not enjoy spending the rest of my life in jail for knocking the living crap out of someone who blinks cross-eyed at me, after I've gone about 6 hours without a cigarette. I'm not a violent person, but I do not handle withdrawal well AT ALL. So people, if you've never been a smoker, don't presume to tell someone who has smoked most of their life, that they could quit "if they wanted to". You've never been there, you have no idea how difficult it is.
I just hope the Chantix works as well for me as it did for my son...... when we're finally able to get a new script and get it filled. Until then mister, ya better leave me alone, cause it's none of your business.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Musings

Told ya'll in the beginning, I'm not much for blogging. Guess I've proved it, but will attempt to put some thoughts down..........

My van is still at "the mechanic's"..... guy John works with. Hopefully when he comes home from work in the morning he'll say, 'let's go pick up your van'. He got a loan to buy another..... we won't talk about that one except to say, it needs some work. Ummmmm....... our real estate agent "GUARANTEES" he can get enough for our house to get the one we want without having to come up with extra money. We'll see. Can't wait to get out of this place and away from the mold.

Found a number for an old friend from school..... called and we talked and talked and talked.. Gonna do it again too! Funny how years go by, you lose touch, life goes on, things change, but one phone call and everything is right back on track. Won't be long and we'll be able to keep all our kids' and grandkids' names straight. Maybe if we ever get to take a real vacation, we can go visit her in NC. Like I tell my family.... if it's meant to be, it will.

Hummmm...... what else? OH YEAH!!!!!!!! The BEST!!!!!! I finally got to go to Healthcare for Women...... they deal with bio-identicals!!!!!!!!! Been on them for only 3 weeks, but the change in the way I feel is wonderful! No more hot flashes and the "depression" isn't half as bad as it was. I'm even sleeping a bit better. Knock on wood! We got the results for my hormone levels and they were WAAAAY down, as expected. Good news, thyroid levels are just fine. Now back to the regular doc to get him working on the neck, back and leg problems.

I've been putting the finishing touches on one of my little guys.. the chubby elf. Gotta make a base for him, just haven't seen it in my mind yet. I did finish SnowDancer's 'snowscape'..... Haven't talked myself into putting her up for sale yet. More attached to this sculpt than any of the others. Going to be hard to let her go. My heat gun stopped working a couple weeks ago and I'm lost without it. The oldest son surprised us with a visit last week... This boy can fix ANYTHING!!! If he can't fix it, nobody can. He took it apart..... said he could bypass something or other and make it work, but it would be a fire hazard. Not in this 100 year old house! Threw it away and bought a new one on ebay last night. Not only was it cheaper than the first... this one is PINK! I love pink.

Also while he was here, my son fixed my PC. Not that I'll give up my Mac.... but there's shitloads of genealogy and pictures and music on the PC that I was really afraid I'd lost forever. Can't do much to get it off until after we get moved. We've pretty much turned that room into a storage room since we started packing up. It's difficult to get to it and not enough room to work. Once we get moved I can get all that stuff off and onto this Mac, then we can put the phone back on that PC and off the slooooowwwwwww one it's on now.

Guess I'll go clean up my kitchen and get ready to get to bed. It's been a long day. Goodnight!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

New Artdoll



I've been working on "SnowDancer" for over a month now and she is finally finished. (except for eyebrows) I started working on her 'snowscape' Sunday..... we'll see how that turns out. Not much in the mood for working on anything.

John told the dr. about my headaches, so instead of concentrating on my back and problems standing and walking... he jumped on the head and now I have to go for a brain MRI. Being a bit claustrophobic, I really really HATE those things. Have to get bloodwork done too..... fasting..... don't these people realize I'm a total bitch in the morning until I have my coffee??????????? How John puts up with me ???????? must be love. I know what I need...... a ride down to the point.... Turkey Point... Watch the eagles for awhile. Send some smoke to creator. Sounds like a plan........ as soon as I get motivated.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

My Husband My Life

Anyone who knows me also knows I've had a few husbands. None good matches. Until now. As my youngest daughter is fond of saying "Mom always saves the best for last". I spent many years believing all the "good ones" were either already married, or gay and there was no such thing as a soul mate. And then I got a phone call from a friend from high school. She was trying to sign up on one of those singles sites and couldn't figure it out. Being one of those people who have to "see" in order to figure out, I went to the site to see what she was trying to do.... Stupid thing wouldn't let me look at where she was unless I signed up. No biggy.... I can always delete the account once I get her on the right track. Yeah, right. She was having problems signing up, because the site was in the middle of glitches. It took the better part of an hour just to get the thing to recognize my sign up, so I could get to the place where she was having problems. Got her all sorted out and then the stupid thing wouldn't let me delete my account!!!!!! Did I also mention I wasn't a big believer in "fate" either? Anyway, being a busy woman, I forgot about the stupid thing. A few days later I was in a car accident, totaled the car, and came close to totaling myself. At the time I was living in the middle of nowhere, in a house my boss owned, with no car and only had access to the internet late at night after everyone left the shop. Then out of nowhere (remember I had forgotten about the stupid pain in the butt singles site) I get an email ........ Yep, you guessed it. So, we emailed a few times, then started chatting on instant messenger, and then my computer crashed. So I mustered up all my courage and called him and left a voicemail explaining why I wouldn't be on messenger. He actually called back!!! A couple days later we were talking on the phone shortly before he had to be at work and I cussed. My daughter had gone to the store for me but I had forgotten to have her get cigarettes. Said I'd have to make what I had last until morning. No way. Just give him directions and he would bring me some. And that was that. We've been together ever since.... 6 years and 12 days. We've now been married 2 years and 12 days. Six years without a fight. I'm not saying we haven't disagreed..... we just don't fight about it. And I'm not saying he has no faults, because we all do.... his just aren't worth pissing and moaning about. This man has one of the kindest hearts I've ever known. He would (and literally has) give you the shirt off his back, or a car, or RV. He treats my 4 kids and their 7 kids as his own. He treats me like a princess and spoils me rotten... which probably proves he's looney.... but I love him for it. He helps me take in strays, so our critter quota is sometimes busting at the seams (not always a good thing when you live in town). He even helped me and the 9 yr old granddaughter build an incubator and hatch chickens.... in the dining room! And there they stayed until they were old enough to go to a friend's nephew who wanted chicken pets. I do miss my chicks. Oh well, he says when we win the power ball we'll buy a small farm and I can have chickens, ducks, angora goats, or miniature pigs..... whatever I want. He's definately a keeper....... and he's ALLLLLL mine.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Crappy and Great Day all in one

Well, today started really crappy. We've had Shadow and Ru for 4 and 3 years.... keeping them "for a while" for my son. He finally got his own place a couple weeks ago and insisted we bring "his" dogs down. We did, with arguments. I will miss Shadow, but she's always been Jeff's and makes no bones about it. If he's around.... everyone else may as well not exist. But Ru...... Ru is my baby! He wasn't supposed to come here. He's half Pit and I wanted no parts of anything with Pit in it. I don't care for brindles....... he is one. He ended up here anyway. Not sure how that happened, but now...... he is MY baby!!!!!!!!!! And I want him back NOW!!! 
The great part of the day.... when we took the dogs we got a surprise.... oldest son was there from WV. Surprise!!! Then the youngest daughter and her whole family came in. Wouldn't have surprised me for the oldest daughter and her family to show up, but they didn't :(.  Stopped to pick up groceries on the way home and rented "Baby Mama" and that was great too. Then I put some finishing touches on my new fairy and her critter......
I still want my Ru back!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Heat Wave in April??????


Yep, it's official.... an April heatwave. Today is the 4th day temps have reached the 90's. Being April we have no A/C's in yet. Fans are mostly just blowing hot air around. Thank goodness the humidity isn't up there with the heat. I've been trying to work on "Fairy with a critter" but the heat has my feet feeling like over-filled water balloons.. makes for some discomfort.  

On a happy note, I've gained a new great niece a couple weeks ago and a new great nephew today. Born to my brother's two daughters. With luck I'll get to see them before they're a year old... they both live within 20 miles from us. We were down there Saturday, but my niece wasn't home, so didn't get to see the baby.... Drat!!!  

We actually went down to grab up a couple chunks of oak out of the firewood pile. I'm going to try my hand at making some hardwood tools. Using metal tools when I sculpt leaves the clay looking dirty and it really gets aggravating. Sooooo ....... Let's see if I can pull this off.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Preparing Angora for doll hair

I've spent the last few days combing, washing, conditioning, drying and 
combing again.... the angora that I use as the hair on the artdolls I make. 
This batch started out at 7/10 of an ounce and after the final conditioning 
and drying it weighs in at 3/10 of an ounce. Lots of work, but makes 
beautiful hair and well worth the effort. This particular batch was fairly 
easy and only took about an hour and a half.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Weather Matches Mood

Yes the weather certainly matches my mood. My daughter-in-law was rushed back to ICU last Friday night and died on Sunday. Last night and today were the viewing and funeral services along with dark cloudy skies and rain rain rain. 10 Miles further north is sleet sleet sleet and 10 miles further than that snow snow and sleet, which is what my daughter and her family had to drive through to get home. Came home from the funeral to find I had to make phone calls to find out why my website was non-existent. Got that straightened out with a change of domain name...... I'm now at http://mamawolfcreations.com 

Don't know about the rest of you, but I find it difficult to work on days like this. Trying to sculpt turns into a session of frustration.... those little critters just don't want to cooperate when I'm in these moods. And I have to get busy, I have a commission piece that has to be done by Monday! AND!!!!! I have 5 1/2 out of 11 lap quilts to finish as Christmas presents.... SHEESH!!!! Can't we postpone Christmas for a week??????????

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

All I Want for Christmas

Remember I said "Santa" said if I was good he'd get me a better camera for Christmas? And remember I said I thought letting "Santa" go to California for four days of music stuff was being REALLY GOOD? Well, "Santa" went to a sale on Black Friday (on his way to work) and got me a Polaroid i835, 8 mega pixal camera with a 3" display. MUCH better than my little 4 mp Mustic. He brings it home and says "you can't open it". It seems this guy at work has a camera (not sure of the brand) that's a 12 mega pixal, still in the package!!!! He'll sell it to him for $50! That's right fifty, not five hundred. Sunday night, he forgot to bring it to work, last night? Yep, he forgot to bring it to work. John says he's sure he'll remember to bring it before Christmas. He's also not sure how long we have to be able to return the other..... may end up with 2 cameras..... 
I WANNA OPEN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GAAH!!

In the meantime....... I have a bunch of sewing projects to finish before Christmas. WHY didn't I get this hairbrained idea a few weeks sooner?????? I also have a commission piece to do before Christmas..... to include 3 dragons. I have an image in my mind..... just not sure yet how to get it in clay without losing my mind.

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Friday, November 7, 2008

First Night of John's Trip

Well, John left at 4 a.m. to catch a plane to Los Angeles. Won't be back until Monday. I've been rattling around the house, kinda lost.... Damn I miss him. Had to push myself to finish the garden fairy that's being picked up tomorrow morning (oops...  this morning). It actually turned out pretty good I think. I'm going to take pictures with the 35 mm, but will snap a couple with the digital just to see how they turn out. Sure hope Santa brings me a GOOD digital for Christmas. After she picks this one up I have to get motivated to finish the mama and baby fairies. I did get another coat of paint on them and hope that's all they need. Then I can start on their "home".  Took the garden fairy to the dollar store...... may just have another order! And I found a picture with the perfect pose I want to start on next. I'm tempted to go back downstairs to the worktable, but there's a slight chance if I lay down instead I might possibly go to sleep before 3 a.m. Good Night.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Politics and Scandalmongering

Thank God there is only one more day before this election is finally over with. I am truly and completely sick to death of these malicious, hateful, scandalmongering emails. (email in it's entirety below) Any intelligent person would take the time to do a bit of research. That person would find that EVERY SINGLE EMAIL that has swamped the internet in the last 2 years with the intent of character-assassination of Obama is out-and-out lies. I've NEVER been the least bit interested in being involved in politics. But thanks to these hate emails in reference to Obama I've read - researched - read and re-researched more on these two candidates and Sara Palin than I've researched anything else in my life. My conclusion? I don't know who Fifi in this email is, but she is obviously one of those who receives an email and because it came through the world wide web it MUST be true and passes it on and on and on...... STOP IT!!! I have discovered that both McCain and Obama are GOOD men. Both would make a good president, though let's not forget anything that may become a law must go through the House and Senate before it gets to the president. But where Obama has told his campaign people that there will be no "fighting dirty" and my inbox has not been inundated with McCain hate-mail..... McCain also told his people the same, and yet I get at least 5 of these evil-intentioned defamatory emails about Obama in just one of my inboxes every day. Now if whoever Fifi is wants to be "terrified"...... maybe she should read all the facts printed about Sara Palin, who is "one heartbeat" from the presidency if McCain is elected. Sure she's cute. Wow! She's a mom! Go find the facts. Don't be a mindless fool who let's an email full of bullshit terrify you. And don't send any more to me, I'm NOT voting for Obama and I'm NOT voting for McCain...... I'm voting for OPRAH!!!!!! ________________________________ 

> > Subj: take note... > > Dear friends, > > I was frightened and undone before reading this. I am now terrified as it intriguingly pastes all the pieces together for a true understanding of the man. > > Fifi > > > This is a remarkably interesting thumbnail analysis of a man who has repeatedly reminded me of - in the context of the adoring media and enraptured public - that Jones fellow who led his flock on a Kool Aid mass suicide orgy. I personally believe that Sina's analysis hits the mark dead center, with absolutely deadly implications for the United States, its friends and allies and the financial status of the world. You may remember that Hoover raised the taxes in 1929/30 for people with more than a $100k income from 25% to 55% and what that helped to do to the US (and global) economies. Add in the sociopathic, ethical vacuum that seems to be more apparent with this man (as compared to the figures in Sina's analysis), together with the irresponsible and arguably irrational trend in Democratic Party politics and leadership, and one needs to be very alarmed. > > Desperately hoping for a McCain/Palin win... > > Tom Childs > > > Understanding Obama: By Ali Sina > > I must confess, I was impressed by Sen. Barack Obama from the first time I saw him. At first I was excited to see a black candidate. He looked youthful, spoke well, appeared to be confident, a wholesome presidential package. I was put off soon because there was an air of haughtiness in his demeanor that was unsettling. His posture and his body language were louder than his empty words. Obama's speeches are unlike any political speech we have heard in American history. Never has a politician in this land had such a quasi religious impact on so many people. > > The fact that Obama is a total incognito with zero accomplishment makes this inexplicable infatuation alarming. Obama is not an ordinary man. He is not a genius and in his own words, not a messiah. Because of his lack of experience, he is In fact quite ignorant on most important subjects. According to Dr. Sam Vaknin, Barack Obama is a narcissist. > > Dr. Sam Vaknin is the author of Malignant Self Love, and believes Barack Obama appears to be a narcissist. Vaknin is a world authority on narcissism. He understands it and describes the inner mind of a narcissist like no other person. When he talks about narcissism everyone listens. Vaknin says that Obama's language, posture and demeanor, and the testimonies of his closest, nearest and dearest friends suggest that the Senator is either a narcissist or he may have narcissistic personality disorder (NPD). > > Narcissists project a grandiose but false image of themselves. Jim Jones, the charismatic leader of People's Temple, the man who led over 900 of his followers to cheerfully commit mass suicide and even murder their own children was also a narcissist. Charles Manson, Joseph Koni, Shoko Asahara, Joe Stalin, Saddam, Mao Zedong, Kim Jong IL, and Adolph Hitler are a few examples of narcissists of our time. > > All these men had a tremendous influence over their fanciers and followers. They created a personality cult around themselves, and with their blazing speeches elevated their admirer's souls, filled their hearts with enthusiasm and instilled in their minds a new zest for life. Those men gave their followers hope! They promised them the moon, but alas, they invariably brought them to their doom. > > When you are a victim of a cult of personality, you don't know it until it is too late. One determining factor in the development of NPD is childhood abuse. Obama's early life was decidedly chaotic and replete with traumatic and mentally bruising dislocations, says Vaknin. Mixed-race marriages were even less common then. His parents went through a divorce when he was an infant (two years old). Obama saw his father only once again, before he died in a car accident. His mother re-married and Obama had to relocate to Indonesia, a foreign land with a radically foreign culture, to be raised by a stepfather. > > He was raised as an only child, full of himself and no others. He never had to share the spotlight with any siblings. At the age of ten, he was whisked off to live with his maternal (white) grandparents. He saw his mother only intermittently in the following few years and then she vanished from his life in 1979. She died of cancer in 1995. > > One must never underestimate the manipulative genius of pathological narcissists. They project such an imposing personality that it overwhelms those around them. Charmed by the charisma of the narcissist, people become like clay in his hands. They cheerfully do his bidding and delight to be at his service. The narcissist shapes the world around him and reduces others in his own inverted image. He creates a cult of personality; his admirers become his co-dependents. > > Narcissists have no interest in things that do not help them to reach their personal objectives. They are focused on one thing alone, and that is power. All other issues are meaningless to them and they do not want to waste their precious time on trivialities. Anything that does not help them is beneath them and does not deserve their attention. If an issue raised in the Senate does not help Obama in one way or another, he has no interest in it. > > The Present vote is a safe vote; he used the Present all the time as a member of the Illinois legislature. No one can criticize him if things go wrong. Why should he implicate himself in issues that may become controversial when they don't help him personally? Those issues are unworthy by their very nature because they are not about him. Obama's election as the first black president of the Harvard Law Review led to a contract and an advance to write a book about race relations. > > The University of Chicago Law School provided him with a fellowship and an office to work on his book. The book took him a lot longer than expected and at the end it devolved into, guess what? His own autobiography! > > Instead of writing a scholarly paper focusing on race relations, for which he had been paid, Obama could not resist writing about his most sublime self. He entitled the book Dreams from My Father. Not surprisingly, Adolph Hitler also wrote his own autobiography when he was still nobody. So did Stalin. For a narcissist, no subject is as important as his own self. Why would he waste his precious time and genius writing about insignificant things when he can write about such an august being as himself? > > Narcissists are often callous and even ruthless. As the norm, they lack conscience. This is evident from Obama's lack of interest in his own brother who lives on only one dollar per month. A man who lives in luxury, who takes a private jet to vacation in Hawaii, and who has raised a half billion dollars for his campaign (something unprecedented in history) has no interest in the plight of his own brother. Why? His brother cannot be used for his ascent to power. > > A narcissist cares for no one but himself.. This election is like no other election in the history of America. The issues are insignificant compared to what is at stake. What can be more dangerous than having a man bereft of a conscience, a serial liar, and one who cannot distinguish his fantasies from reality as the leader of the free world? > > I hate to sound alarmist, but one must be a fool if one is not alarmed. Many politicians are narcissists. They pose no threat to others. They are simply self-serving and selfish. [Witness Al Gore's Income Tax; it reveals that he gave away NO MONEY to charities, not even to a church!] Obama evinces symptoms of pathological narcissism, which is different from the run-of-the-mill narcissism of a Richard Nixon or Bill Clinton, for example. To him reality and fantasy are intertwined. This is a mental health issue, not just a character flaw. > > Pathological narcissists are dangerous because they look normal and even intelligent. It is this disguise that makes them treacherous. [Look up the word treachery.] Today, the Democrats have placed all their hopes in Obama. But this man could put an end to their party [and to this great nation]. The great majority of blacks have also decided to vote for Obama. Only a fool does not know that their support for him is racially driven. Let us call a spade a spade [No pun intended]. This is racism, pure and simple. > > The truth is that, while everyone carries a misconceived collective guilt towards blacks for wrongs done centuries ago by a bygone people to a bygone people, the blacks carry a collective rancor, enmity or vendetta towards non-blacks, and to this day want to stand up to the white man. They seem to be stuck in 19th century [encouraged by race baiters like Al Sharpton, Jesse Jackson and others]. > > The downside of this is, that if Obama turns out to be the disaster I predict, he will cause widespread resentment among the whites. The blacks are unlikely to give up their support of their man. Cultic mentality is pernicious and unrelenting. They will dig their heads deeper into the sand and blame Obama's detractors of racism. This will cause a backlash among the whites. The white supremacists will take advantage of the discontent and they will receive widespread support. > > I predict that in less than four years, racial tensions will increase to levels not seen since the turbulent 1960s. Obama will set the clock back decades. America is the bastion of freedom. The peace of the world depends on the strength of America, and its weakness translates into the triumph of terrorism and victory of rogue nations. It is no wonder that Ahmadinejad, Hugo Chavez, the Maoist Castroists, the Hezbollah, the Hamas, the lawyers of the Guantanamo terrorists, and virtually all sworn enemies of America are so thrilled by the prospect of their man in the White House. America is on the verge of destruction. There is no insanity greater than electing a pathological narcissist as president. > "If we ever forget that we're one nation under God, then we will be a nation gone under" - Ronald Reagan > >

Monday, October 27, 2008

Slipped again

Once again I've let days go by without adding anything here. Since John and I are, for the most part, stay at homes, there's not a whole lot to write about. I'm sick to death of all the election crap. All the ads on TV are getting on my last nerve. It's more like "let's see how many sentence fragments we can twist to mean something else" and whoever gets the most wins. I'm  gonna tell you right here and now, I was leaning towards McCain....... until he chose Palin as his running mate. So what's the big OMG on TV about her? Clothing....... and how much the republicans paid for it. SO WHAT!!!!  Why don't they talk about her wanting to do away with Roe vs. Wade? Or why aren't we hearing about the 2 lawsuits she's involved in in Alaska, trying to take away most of the fishing and hunting rights of the natives so commercial fisherman and tourists can move in? If she'll do that as governor of Alaska........ how are the natives of the whole country going to fare with her as VP, or if anything happens to McCain, as president? And anyone who knows me well, knows that I have a special place in my heart for wolves. If you study anything about them you will know that they are regular people..... they just happen to have 4 legs and fur.  If you've ever been hugged and kissed by an Alaskan Timberwolf, you'll understand what I mean. Sara Palin is all for hunting wolves from airplanes! That is just completely and totally unacceptable!!!!!!!